Days till end of 2007

Hmm.. lets c.. my 1st post on this blog.. supposingly i should be sleepin but i dont noe y i'm startin a blog.. juz feel like it cause i cant go out n shout everythin out.. well... who cares.. anyway.. Christmas.. moody crap.. feel so left out.. havent receive any call that i expected.. i cant even call.. sigh.. life.. argghh... Christmas eve was worse talkin bout it.. somethin has to be hold.. a time off.. dint expect it to come.. i respect it.. accept it better than being avoided.. rather than pushing or makin matter worse.. i really really had a long long talk.. i juz wish everythin goes back to the way it used to be.. i noe regrettin now is useless.. i'm tryin my best to change 4 the better sake of myself.. no1 will ever notice.. mayb its juz not enuf, i myself feel so.. juz few more days till end of 2007.. i dont want anymore scar on year 2007.. i already have enuf.. i hope that things goes well for 2008.. really damn hard to go through 1 single day alone.. anyway.. i'll try to post more n change this fugly lookin blog..